Friday, May 18, 2012

Melancholy of a restless mind

There’s something to be said about censorship and an online persona.

I find the online mummy experience can sometimes appear like a competition in perfect Pinterest projects and happy pictures of beautiful lives. I’m sure I’m guilty as charged, and I’m not saying that those things aren't real; it’s just that life is multi-faceted, multi-dimensional, multi-layered. It is a lot easier to post pretty pictures wrapped in niceties of our daily experiences than to delve into the complexities of solitude, sacrifice, dejection and cynicism plaguing the restless mind. One can be absolutely truthful and sincere without having to divulge much of the other side of the equation.

So there it is; a short and sharp paragraph telling you everything that is going on with me at the moment, and perhaps nothing that is reflective of my life.

I find myself seeing beauty in pictures of dead leaves.

And rain droplets beading on lemon grass blades.

My son fell asleep holding his transmitter for his RC car. That made me smile.

I think (I know) I need a holiday; somewhere warm with palm trees and perfect white sandy beaches that beckon me to roll out of bed and straight into crystal clear waters.


Lynette said...

you had me going.... i thought that you were going to come back and visit us.... warm with palm trees....
but i know we don't have perfect sandy beaches... unless you are talking about the sand box that Ethan has... or the crystal clear waters - if you count the water in my tub....

we miss you guys.
love spending time with you by reading, i hope that i can reciprocate soon... =)

LatteJunkie said...

You summarised in one paragraph how I've been feeling. Thank you.

It's hard but I hope that by focussing on the seemingly small things (leaves or smell of baking) that we can see the bigger picture more clearly.

Hugs x

Anonymous said...

I hear ya! awesome post. x

Lien - all new adventures said...

@ Lynette, it's always tempting to just drop everything and come over and see you et al. I'm sure if I did climb in to Ethan's sandpit I'd have the kids would kicking me out.

@ LatteJunkie, smell of baking - that would be comforting. Good idea. Yes, bigger picture, I need a reminder of that 'cause at the moment I can't see the forest for the trees.

@ Michelle,thanks!

Carlos said...

Lien, nice post! Yes, the complexities of life can be overwhelming; I find comfort in a slice of creamy cheesecake topped with fresh strawberries. :)


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